I know it’s just a season…

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We made an impromptu trip to Ames yesterday and saw so many people we love and miss. It was great. I told a friend if I blogged more right now, my blog would be a bummer to read, so I just haven’t. (And I lost my memory card, so for a while I couldn’t post any pictures either.)

But then we returned “home”.

I’m going to blog today, and here’s why. I have no fellowship in my life right now, and as my friends in Ames found out, if you ask how things are, you’re opening a whole can of emotions that are going to explode out at you, so it’s safer just not to ask. So, this act of posting is once again, a way to put myself through therapy. Stop reading now if you wish.

First, let me tell you I am SO HAPPY for Craig to have a job that doesn’t drive him crazy, stress him out, or bring us all to anger. I know that even if that is the only good thing that’s happening, that this is all worth it.

The move has been harder than I thought it would be. In the beginning, I crazily thought we’d just move from our current house to our future house. Then, after some time, I saw there would likely be a gap in there where we’d have to rent or live with friends. for a couple weeks. I thought. Then, after our first house fell through, I realized that this transition time could be a bit longer. And then the second house, didn’t blog about that one. And now the third house we’ve put an offer in on. We’ve been coming to Pella since the middle of December to look at houses, it feels like a long time. And my thoughts aren’t moving in a logical order, they’re just all over the place. And I haven’t had any coffee yet today, so forgive my lack of any sense-making.

I guess, living in Pella for 5 weeks now, but still being in this transition stage, just hasn’t been easy. I think I’m going a little crazy. Maybe it’s the pregnancy? I would give anything for a playdate with our old friends. Liv watches WAY more Dora than I would like her to be. (Side story: she says “Go-E, Go-E, Go-E” for Dora, Dora, Dora. It is pretty cute.) We go to the library for Tot Time most Tuesdays and/or Wednesdays, but other than that, I just don’t know what to do with her here! I miss our zoo, our Target, our play area at the mall, our Tuesday morning play group, our friends. We go to Des Moines at least once a week right now, just to get out of town and do something. (Craig’s job’s had him in Des Moines, so we can stop and see him for lunch too.)

I want to get getting ready for baby #2, but there isn’t much I can do until we have our own house. Baby #2 is already so much more ignored than the first pregnancy. I haven’t been having any prenatal appointments since February because we don’t have maternity coverage right now.

Someday maybe I’ll really like Pella, right now the whole “charm” of the town is more irritating than endearing. I know finding a church home will help that.

Okay, I’m sick of hearing myself, so you must be too. I’m stopping now.

Other cute things Liv is saying:

“Oh, Hi!” (all the time, even if she just saw you)

“E-go” (here you go)

“Ah Ee Ah Ee (ABCD)

“Ha Me” (Help Me)

“Num, Num, Num, Yo Yo” (Yum, Yum, Yum, Yum, Yum, Delicioso! from Dora)

I’m going to try and upload a video of Liv reading her favorite library book right now. I’ll post it soon.

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5 thoughts on “I know it’s just a season…

  1. Jennifer Ekstrand

    I think it is always hard for women to make a major move; I imagine not having your new “home” or church makes it even more difficult. I will be praying that you find both soon.

  2. Kiley

    Oh Leah, hang in there! You can make it. :) Don’t feel guilty for letting Liv watch TV either… sometimes it’s a necessity!

  3. Meribah

    I know you will look back on this time of your life later and see where it all was leading and think, “That was a worthwhile trial”. But I know it’s hard for you right now. It’s okay and healthy to let your feelings out! You are too good of a friend yourself not to make good friends there soon! Put yourself out there, lady! You can do it! :) I miss you bunches and bunches….

  4. Hello, I came across your blog via another fellow Cornerstoner, and I just wanted to ask–have you heard of New Heights Church, the new church plant of Cornerstone, Westwind, & Veritas? It’s in Indianola, and here’s a link to their site: http://newheightschurch.org/ I’m not sure if that’s further away than what you’d prefer for a church, but just thought I’d throw it out there! :-)

    • leahseydel

      Thank you for commenting! I haven’t heard of that particular church in Indianola. However, we would like to find something local as a way to meet people to build relationships with and also as a way to help be missional in the community. I am trying to let go of all of my preferences and just make sure we’re getting some solid teaching. That may be a hard enough challenge! ;)

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